falling apart..

What did I do wrong.. ? Why am I getting treated this way..
If there is a GOD, why am I tested like this? I was always a good human being..
always nice to elders and teachers.. always tried my level best not to harm anybody,
who come across my way knowingly or unknowingly..
now its 2.45pm.. I didnt had my lunch. It is the second time in the same month that I am going
through the same feeling.. I have been trying hard to escape from this field, IT, the so called luring field for many final year graduates.

I wont escape.. Thank GOD, I havent taken date yet. Atleast I would have to pay $250 less.
So, I am postponing my plans, which I am sure I will never be able to achieve.

Its all about money honey..

M.O.N.E.Y .. I feel, this is the most loved five letter word..
But,Will money can get you everything ? Will it give you satisfaction ?
Will it get u love..?
friends..?
family.. ?
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Sleep ??
Nah.. Then why are you worrying about money !

In the end, it doesnt matter - how hard u try

Finally, waiting is over..There will not be any Websphere Process server work in Cadence.

For the past 3-4 months, I was working really hard.. I won't say working.. I was enjoying what ever I was doing.. There was only one aim.. to get into Cadence, WPS part.. and I thought I succeeded in it.. But..

Its nice to hear that somebody cares about u ..

I am in a good mood.. Just now JT called me up, for asking when am I going to join for GMAT classes? He is going to take his first class on next Saturday.. total fee is around 15,500.. I can get a reduction of 1000 on his behalf.. I am really happy - not because I am getting 1000 bucks reduction.. But because, there is somebody who really cares about me , other than my parents and my lady love!

So.. I will be going to join for that classes from coming Saturday.. Today, I heard not-so good news that there won't be much work from Process server side, forcing me to work on Commerce Server, which everybody in our group is well verserd in.. I dont want to follow the majority..I want to start my own way- the road less traveled..

WTF..

People are making me crazy.. :(
I got a mail from George, asking me to undergo WCS training.. I am already tied up with Process Server Work.. The funniest part is that 'They' will consider me as a 'WPS expert' during tough time.. Why all this happens precisely at this time, when I am least intersted to work!

Rough waters

I am going through the toughest time in all my life.. Frustration of not being able to reach anywhere in life (too early to think huh ?) making my life HELL .. I desperately wanted a support from some where.. Unfortunately I am missing it.
I used to boast of (secretly) that I found my soulmate .. But Images are falling apart for the last couple of months..A wrong decision? or an Immature decision as she termed ??
GOD.. Just be with me, after all You are the only one I can bank on anytime.
Hope I won't perish..

10 more months to go! Damn you 2009

I wanted to post something and all.. but don't know what to write..Some kind of inertness..
Its been two months since I jot down something here..though It was a tremendous (read as horrible) time.
Zid came to blore.. Njoyed for almost two months..visited almost every nook and corner of Blore as I always wanted.. She got an admit in Christ for PGDM_GERMANY course.. but the fees was too much..so forced to drop that plan.
Achan n Amma came to blore.. They met their daughter in law.. and they seems to be happy.
Its been weeks since I slept peacfully..
Learnings:
1.Its the hard time in your life that helps you understand your true friends and relatives.
2.There is something in this world that cannot be secured through recommendation
(If you are a Hindu)
3.Managing people is tough.
4.You cannot run away from facts..
5.Need to learn the art of smiling!
6.There are different kinds of people in this world, NEVER measure everyone with the same scale.
7. You wont get happiness unless and until u achieve what you longed.

I am unhappy..Will I ever be Happy?
Bye for now..